Hati Yang Sepi

Hari ni terasa kesunyian...
Macam mana lah orang boleh hidup berjauhan dengan anak?
Persoalannya, macam mana orang boleh bagi anak kat orang lain jaga...
What I mean is, pengasuh...
Orang yang tak dikenali, jaga anak kita...
Pernah tak terfikir, even kita jaga anak kita pun kita ada rasa nak marah dan geram bila dia nangis...
Tapi kita tak marah dan tak pukul sebab sayang dan fikir tu darah daging kita...
Tapi ada tak kita fikir, pengasuh tu tak marah ke? tak cubit ke? tak tengking ke?
Sebab tu, saya sanggup berkorban tinggalkan anak di kampung which is 8hours of driving take place to reach~
Saya sanggup bagi my own mother to take care of my baby...
Even mak mertua saya pun saya tak consider sangat untuk dia jaga because that baby came from me...I carried him for 10 month, fighting death to labour...and my mother is only one person that I trust to take care of my baby....
Tapi, terasa kesunyiannya...
Anak tak de disisi...
Sunyi sangat...
Sedih...
Setiap hari, hampir setiap masa berendam airmata...
Cuma untuk setahun ni...
Berkorban demi masa hadapan yang lebih baik...
 Lepas ni? No more...
Tiada lagi perpisahan...
Sambung belajar just untuk part-time...
Tak nak amik full-time dah...

Tak mau dah hidup kesunyian...
Nak happy je...
After this, I'm going to concentrate fully for my family....
Life means my son, my husband and my mother...
Kerja? Of course la kerja...
Sape nak bayar kereta dan rumah?
Tapi kerja only 8am-5pm...
and...only for 10 more years...
before I reach 40yrs old, I'll becoming a housewife...
Concentrate on my children, cooking for my hubby, and do what I love at home..BAKING~

Hopefully, I'll become a success carrier woman within this 10 years~
Hahaha...~ LOL :-P

Anyway...
Berbalik kepada tajuk SEPI..
Bila semakin meningkat usia, semakin sepi dunia...
Kawan-kawan semua dah kahwin and ada life masing-masing...
Dah tak de nak lepak-lepak...
Nasib baik jugak ada hubby disisi...
Tapi kesian jugak hubby, dia pun kesepian sebab wife dia rindukan anak so tak layan sangat dia...
Hehehe...takpe, still you have me to cook for you...

Well guys, hopefully I can cope with my KESEPIAN here...
Please pray for me so that everything will gone smoothly this years~